Tons of thought is being given to things I’ve done. And even more to things I should do. While drinking Milo seems like a good relief after a serious thrashing, a lot more needs to be done other than just comfort my dear spoil tummy. I am trying to sum up enough courage to overcome a couple of things: desperation, insecurity, fears, incompetency, laziness (to name a few). And I really hope it’s not too late to sort things out.
For the past few months I was like too close with …ehm.. you know something called a massive “break down” and part time stalker. Hahaa.. But that’s life huh, we’ve all grown: we’re older, and more mature. Well at least we know how do we feel, and able to cope with it. Wow, someone’s getting wiser and wiser and wiser here.
So I’m here announcing to the world/whoever who reads my tumblr especially you, YES YOU! see this text I’d like to say ehm..I realized that we drift our separate ways. All we need is a little deviation, a degree or two the direction we’re facing. And when we’ve moved (You finally did it actually), we’re so far apart. Hope you remember the good times we’ve had. Hope you finally regrets with your decision. Hahahhaa… KIDDING! I’m wishing you tons of happiness and be blessed! Wishing you wishing me the best and gonna start a family soon with two children or maybe three.
However, couple weeks ago a friend of mine encouraged us – DIKb’ers to write something or even a book. He’s a writer and super multitalented person that Dik B ever had. I tried to write something with Im So Jung as the main character. God knows how I love her so much. Poor her! She’s been throwing many times to play this character and that character as my wish. hahaha.. so sorry. And after two lines of plot I realized that I’m better at eating and drinking Milo than writing, means I’m better off focusing on my internal self than to continually fail at something I’m not good at.
Guess I really need to believe in myself. and I’m going to start focusing on my priority. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Me : Pucuk Dicinta Ulampun tiba, Haiiiiiiiii Ulam
Tj : *acuh* dan *berlalu*
Me : Lho Ulam piye toh kok berlalu aja? Mampir sini e,
Tj : Maaf semester ini aku nggak mampir di rekeningmu ya
Me : Yah yah... Jangan aku butuh kamu, Umm.. Aku sudah mengandalkanmu untuk konser Jiyong lho
Tj : Sorry. Kamu nggak kebagian ROLLING semester ini
Me : Oh ya? Kok pakai rolling? Standar ROLLINGnya apa?
Tj : Nggak tau, orang yang beramal shaleh mungkin dan tergantung amal perbuatan
Me : Lho kamu tau darimana amal shalehnya? Dalam agamaku saat tangan kananmu memberi tangan kirimu aja nggak boleh tau lho, Lha kok kamu bisa tau amal shaleh setiap orang.
Tj : ...
Me : Semester depan kamu mampir kan?
Tj : ...
Me : Semester depannya lagi kamu mampir kan?
Tj : ...
Me : Isssh sombong banget sih! DEMI TUHAAAAAAAAN!!
Tj : Dont blame me, blame the regulation.
Me : Nggak boleh, kata bapakku segala sesuatu harus disyukuri. I know it's stupid regulation. Kalau nggak ada kejelasan regulasi penerima menurutku ya udah HAPUSKAN AJA. Kamu nggak usah lagi ada menghiasi layar rekening setiap tenaga honor.
Me : Ok, belum rejeki *dalam hati injek2 bumi kayak Arya Wiguna*
KL : Kamu bisa mengajar disini?
Me : ... *cepet banget dapet penggantinya ya Allah*
Pucuk dicinta Ulampun tiba " Haiiiiiiiiiiiii another Ulam" ;)